The sun had now set fully. She contemplated the city going by as she rocked along with the motion of the bus. It was a succession of gas stations, big electronics stores, and car dealerships, with small stores, private houses, and office buildings filling up the spaces in between. It was a cityscape she knew well. In a day or two, it would be four years since they moved to this part of Tokyo. The time had gone by so quickly! They were living somewhere new, but living together with her mom, just the two of them, was as much fun as ever. Sure, they fought from time to time, but they had never had a serious falling-out.
When Sonoka was a child, most of the children at the place where Chizuko worked had no parents, rather than just one. As a result, Sonoka didn't feel that she was different. She had a vague idea that her father was dead.
It was only after she'd been at primary school for a while that she started thinking about him. Most of her school friends had two parents. She was eager to discover what her father had been like. Chizuko couldn't bring herself to lie.
"Your father worked at the same place where I was working. It's a long time ago now. Circumstances prevented us from getting married. Mommy wanted to have a baby anyway, so I had a baby with him, and that baby was you."
That was the explanation Sonoka got the first time she asked. She kept on asking the same question over and over until she finally learned the truth. It was simple enough. Her father already had a family of his own. When he found out that Chizuko was pregnant, he didn't want her to have the baby and told her that if she went ahead and had it, he would refuse to acknowledge it. That was when Chizuko had made the decision to bring up the child as a single parent. She broke up with Sonoka's father and never contacted him again. That was why Sonoka had never met him.
None of this came as any great shock to Sonoka. When she asked Chizuko what sort of man he was, she was told that he was "very kind, very nice." That was good enough for her.
She was still sunk in these old memories when the bus reached her stop. She climbed down onto the sidewalk, the bag of grilled chicken in her hand.
She walked along the road for a few minutes. There was the two-story wooden apartment building off on the left. The place was called Dolphin Heights. Both she and her mother had liked the name and it was one reason why they had decided to live there. There were four apartments on each floor, with an outdoor staircase leading up to the second floor. Chizuko and Sonoka lived in the apartment at the end of the second floor closest to the stairs and the road.
Sonoka took her key out of her handbag as she made her way up the stairs. She could see light seeping through the cracks around the door. Chizuko was home after all.
She unlocked the door and pulled it open. "It's me. I'm back," she said.
Normally, her mother was quick to respond with "Welcome home." This time, there was nothing but silence. Closing the door behind her, Sonoka slipped off her shoes. What was going on? Her mother's shoes were right there below the step, meaning she should be at home.
She looked around the living room. There was no Chizuko, but the tote bag she always took with her to work was sitting on the floor leaning up against the low table where they ate their meals.
As Sonoka stepped up into the apartment, she realized that the sliding door leading to the space with the washing machine, toilet, and bathroom was not shut properly. The second door that led to the bathroom was wide open and the light was on inside. She could hear the murmur of running water.
"Mama?"
Sonoka's breath caught in her throat when she peered into the bathroom. Chizuko was lying sprawled out on the floor. She was still fully dressed.
"Mama," Sonoka shrieked. She shook her. No response. Chizuko's face was waxen. Her eyes were tightly shut.
Ambulance...Got to call an ambulance.
Sonoka rushed out of the bathroom and ripped her phone out of her handbag. In the shock of the moment, she struggled to recall the emergency number.
Chizuko passed away in the hospital about three hours later. It was a subarachnoid hemorrhage. Sonoka felt dizzy and had to sit down when the doctor who had operated on her mother gave her the bad news.
Sonoka and Chizuko had no family beyond each other. Chizuko, however, had a female friend whom she loved and trusted deeply. Back when Sonoka was a little girl, on her days off, Chizuko would take her to her friend's house to play. It was a detached house, painted white, and the woman lived alone because her husband was dead and she had no children of her own.
Sonoka always called her Nae. And she kept calling her that even after learning her full name. Nae was two years older than Chizuko. They had met at the orphanage where Chizuko worked.
Nae always gave them a warm welcome. She would have presents of clothes and toys ready for Sonoka. Nae always insisted on doing the cooking and wouldn't let Chizuko help. "You deserve a proper rest on your day off," she always used to say.
As Sonoka got older, she and her mother went around to Nae's place less and less often. Chizuko, however, still saw her regularly. When Sonoka found delicious-looking sweets laid out on the table at home, as often as not, they were a gift from Nae.
Nae was the only person Sonoka had to turn to as she reeled from the shock of Chizuko's sudden death. She called her. After a moment's stunned silence, Nae said she would be right there. Her voice was flat and devoid of emotion.
But when Nae showed up at the hospital soon after, her eyes were red from weeping. She looked shattered. She burst into tears in the ward when she came face-to-face with Chizuko's dead body. For all this spasm of grief, she proved every bit as dependable as Sonoka expected. While Sonoka had no idea what she was supposed to do, Nae briskly set about making all the arrangements for the funeral and even came to stay in Sonoka's apartment for the night, suspecting that she would feel lonely if left on her own. It was entirely thanks to her that the funeral was all over and done with inside a couple of days.